Homboy's

Watching 《康熙来了》 halfway earlier tonight, I feel like belting out some of the sentimental songs I have been listening to lately...

And the situation with Teddy Bear isn't repairing itself much, being the fact that someone is more of a stubborn-headed Taurean than me (much to my fustration)...

PS: I realised I miss Usher as much as I miss Brain McKnight... wonder what are they up to now?

I know the following:

st701.com
jobsdb.com
monster.com

What else?

My fingers slipped while cleaning my right contact lens at the basin earlier... think it went down the hole already!

Now how to go gym with just my left side and no spare... or worse, how to go out in future?!

I can't be winking at everyone I see on the street...

The teddy bear and I agreed to meet up for gym together and we changed into the same MIZUNO singlet except mine is red and his is white, and wore the same color underwear...

Talk about coicidence... except that I shared my 2nd H-Two-O bottle so that's kinda planned for :P

He gamely played along when I pointed out the row machine for him to try for the first time. Felt cool sounding like a trainer with 2 gym trainers sitting behind us hahah

End of story.

After driving for coming to 5 years (soon), I have just received my first $10 fine tucked under the wiper yesterday.

I walked towards the car cautiously while looking out for the infamous white long strip of the accursed... and yep, Miss Rubiah gave me what I "deserved"; for parking more than 45 minutes when she appeared.

Ah wells, I shall strike Choa Chu Kang area as a red spot in Singapore... Jurong East is still the safest :P

PS: I paid the fine with DIGNITY at the AXS Station soon after. And the moral? I should have gone down to put 2 more hours instead :(

It sounds weird but I am already dating another person while still healing from last weekend's "trauma". I actually met this guy the next evening with a very "off" headache on Sunday over a drink of coffee, amidst a bout of flu and bad nasal accent (and someone actually said I sounded so sexy...)

Okay he's a bi too, apparently almost engaged in his recent relationship until his then girlfriend detected something about him... or so he claims. The first meet-up was pretty okay, since I wasn't really keen to know somebody else when the thing just ended the day before. I was making funny conversations mostly and I think I actually initiate more than he does. Well he actually invited me to join him for a workout the next day on Monday since we go to the same gym but I turned him down as I hardly visit the gym in the evenings (I have seen how crowded the locker room can be) plus I reckon I was coming down with a fever and cold from the clubbing.

And I was right. The nasal gotten worse that I slept alot during the day over the next few days, plus the fact that the effect makes me abit emotional. Hence the weird captions in my MSN and stuffs. And he was concerned about it. I actually told him what happened the previous night before I met him. And I carelessly commented that I need a hug blah blah blah. Which he offered and so I went to pick him up on Tuesday night over at his place and we went somewhere to get cosy under the cool night. Now I know how cosy and cuddly teddy bears can be; I wasn't really interested in him then but the hug was nice under the circumstances. Thankfully he's on a smaller frame; I still have spare hands after waisting him.

That was then I suspected that he is keen on me but he'll always avoid the topic whenever I ask him directly over the MSN whether he likes me. Each time he wants to see me, either on cam while he is working, or after work, I shoot back with THE question. And then he'll ask me back instead. Which really got me thinking he can be quite a MCP. And I was right really; I commented there's this movie out on Thursday and he suggested a midnight movie, but I didn't confirm on that matter. Anyways I took some flu tablets and went to sleep after feeling drowsy in the evening and did not wake up until way past midnight. And apparently he was waiting for my reply to confirm and even called me while I was sleeping, which infuriated him and for unknown reasons on my side, I had to pacify him and took a cab over to his place and spent the night together. And because I had slept my full, I did not catch a wink at all in his bed until morning and yah... he showed his MCP side of him. Which in turn pissed me off and left for the bus at 6 in the morning.

Now he is trying to control my life as well; stop seeing other people, stop putting up my photos online, someone has to change role (read: sex)... So I confronted him back with

I hate sex right now. If you want to be with me, bear in mind the intimacy will only stop at foreplay and kissing. No penetration. AT ALL.

He said he wanted to go to sleep after that. We'll see what will happen next.

MTV World Stage actually featured BEP earlier tonight and I realised my sister in law actually listen to their songs.

I was playing with Ryan and "encouraging" to dance to "I Gotta Feeling" and he was staring at me in bewilderment as I sang the repeated lines to him at the same time, and then she came to the living room and sat down nearby and listened too.

Gosh I am missing their concert all over again...

If I revert back to the heartless guy I was who goes around breaking people's hearts,

WILL THERE BE KARMA?

I can't even recall who was the person that took down my cold armor...

Seriously I don't feel like penning down anything after he came over to pass me the huge textbook for insurance earlier...

I knew the moment I saw him everything is gone after I blew up the whole matter.

SO IT'S JUST A MISSED LUNCH. Big deal...

I'll try to study the textbook anyways and see if I am able to take the mock papers he has provided. If there is progress amidst less mundane thoughts, maybe I'll go get a license and see if I fit in that environment.

I got upset with myself for trying to decipher too much one simple and short text message and lost my temper at him...

Yah... there was a supposedly lunch date together...

Really hate this habit of mine to INTERPRET meanings behind each sentence...

I was actually slowing waking up before my alarm sets off around 0630 as I kinda decided to go to the gym again to do another body area, plus there's this "free" powerstretching by one of the PTs whom called me.

I knew my bag was heavy when I threw in the trunks and suntanning lotion and yet I took my chances. I reached the gym earlier than scheduled but I cut down my usual period as I did not take any breakfast before working out. After doing sets of lats and legs extension I went down to look for the trainer.

Okay seriously he IS good with his hands; I don't feel so tense after stretching all over and almost wanted to lure myself to bed. However after my nap my back was really killing me, which got me abit worried if it's due to the long absence of lifting weights or the stretch down instead... Well anyways he tried to convince me to sign up a workout package afterwards by showing me his bod on his phone. I frowned at his gesture actually and almost tempted to ask him to take off his jacket instead... Anyways for obvious reasons I turned him down after awhile (by the way he's from Philipines Fitness First) and REALLY took my time showering and resting in the sauna and steam room while waiting for my friend to lunch with. Ah yes, the one with the porsche...

Okay the trainer actually mentioned I have a lean body but this friend of mine had the nerves to call me skinny... at least the lunch is on him so...

So today, I actually left the house at 0845 and came back around 1420... the reward? My lower back in pain... hope the pain/ache lessens tomorrow... at least my date showed abit of concern after I changed my MSN nick... Yah I am shallow-minded...

This song grows on me every time I hear it until I wanted people to hear the same song when they ring me up... until I found out the version from Singtel is very heavily bass...

So I added another song by Yoga Lin to my playlist, which means now I have 5 rotating songs?!

It gets quite depressing when you realised that you seems to be the attraction of guys who are out to "snack" behind their partners' back these days.

Do I really have the "third party" look after all??

This current date of mine apparently was dating another person who actually is pretty high profile especially in the clubbing scene when he showed me his picture in his hp.

He said he is attached but upon deeper probing (because I DO NOT WANT to be the third party again), he is JUST dating the same person for many months, which I corrected him (he has a REALLY strange definition of "dating a person") yet still abit disheartened.

Anyways nothing much to elaborate what happened yesterday as I suspect his current date has a blog here somewhere as well (okay he is REALLY high profile in many many places)... And I am holding back somewhat now as I am skeptical after the whole hanging out, which is rather comfortable actually...

*GROAN*

I got a rude shock while being alone inside the steam room after my quick repetitions over 4 machines and 4 sets at the gym after this particular "heavy-weighted" guy walked in.

Okay firstly he plastered a palmful of wet toilet paper on the wall (CAN"T YOU FLUSH IT DOWN THE TOILET?!) which I pretended not to notice... then he started shaving away as the steam intensified. Okay to me that utter disgust in someone's presence, and thankfully he did not proceed to go to the nether regions... But I eventually gave up when the steam vapour gotten too over-empowering (how come his presence can create so much!!! His size?!) and shortly after he came out too behind me.

CHILLS.

And as I looked down while showering, I was actually not impressed with my bod at all.

TOTALLY NOT A SWIMMER"S BOD which I myself can get turned on.

Life's so unfair to the ugly ones sometimes... I can't even look beautiful in other regions than the face :(

I wasn't online tonight until I went out to grab some bite at MacDonald's for supper and finished watching ANTM.

My current date immediately window-ed me that he was so upset. Well I am sure he almost told everyone else already but it was a sweet silly thought he actually waited for me the whole night to "break the news". Anyways he misplaced his $600 wallet at the gym locker today and had to cancelled all his credit cards and suffer $70 loss of cash. So I tried my best to comfort him after realising what had happened and advised him to make a police report for his IC and driving licence. And offered to drive over and comfort him with a tight hug despite being midnight. And he wristfully wished the person would return the wallet instead... and I was thinking that if the culprit has a taste for brands, I rather he return the MORE important cards instead...

SILLY...

Then again, we are supposed to be spending Saturday together, so now I have to revise abit after what had happened, and of course adding an important trip to the temple for a prayer as he requested (pls???... how cute) Oh yah, he suggested that I try selling policies after relating some issues with him during the day, under his PERSONAL training. I ALMOST CRINGED in my seat when I was trying to convince myself to try sales as he does and while he was "egging" me on to take the exams.

I SO HATE EXAMS. SALES TOO.

I was chatting with this poly student the other day and the topic of meeting up people for sex was raised up somehow.

He said he only have sex with those he has feelings for. And it's only a one-time option. So in a way, he really meant he don't do that often, and not into a committed relationship for his age.

I was like shit... me comparing with him, the ratio must be like 8:2 (or 4:1 if you see it), and yet everytime I wanted to commit, something will trigger an abrupt end to the dating period.

I suppose that making out is a crucial intimacy for me but making love seems to carry a heavier critical for those I had dated, which of course, the whole bed scene will definitely be sensual for both parties when the strong fatal attraction is there, not just looking at the yummy tool and broad shoulders. Okay so I dig perky butts too, but ultimately I will savour the best for the last moment when everyone is already so into the whole thing and wanted to go further.

I stopped dating this guy who happens to be a primary school next-class student (he was mentioned in an earlier entry) after realising he's one of the same breeds; me asking for a hug ONLY can end up both naked in his bed AND doing something else. Seriously I was unwilling initially because he was away for weeks on a business trip and I know things can get out of hand when he sees more of my ****, but I was stupid enough to think that he will be sensible enough to know how much further we can go while still dating... So I told him I wasn't impressed with the way he demands and I regretted my actions too. I usually avoid too much physical contact while dating someone unless we know we are comfortable to be in each other's lives in future, else in way it's just another random one night stand, except with abit of feelings.

So you see the link between mine and his? Actually I don't. Hmmm

Lately I realised the moment I step into the dating scene, I will become very particular about my (ugly) looks to the other person.

Rejections are okay in the past when feelings are not so much involved (read: first meetings), but now, even the uglier ones can be the first to reject you.

DANG. And I always try to be the nice guy and break the awkward tension in the nicest delicate way.

Then again, there's the one night stands which will be on a totally different story. But I rather not steer that way. Those are even more painful when feelings cannot be involved...

I suppose when one is ugly, yours truly should really hide back into the hole and not scare the hell out of others...

I was abit taken aback when someone else shared the same 小牛 as me after being called so for over 20 odd years...

until I realised he got an extra 牛 behind.

Okay lah... abit weird there is another 小牛, just that his got extra character behind, so I feel slightly better

I just sent this new date I am seeing to the airport via BKE and PIE from his place in Choa Chu Kang. The interesting thing is he is REALLY not my type of person but he's one of the few ones whom can make me relaxed and comfortable with.

Especially with similar interests and all.

He's headed to BBK alone for a few days and I guess I'll see him shortly next week again. We had more small talks while I was driving and gotten to know more stuffs about each other, well, mainly more about me. And he reached out to hold my hand on the stick.

Okay... I DIG my bois to reach out their (hungry) hands for mine when I drive... Just a sweet gesture to me.

Gosh he's making me wanting to travel again... perhaps with him near year end?

We'll see...